Diving Off A Cliff at Forty

This week I enter into my 40s.  My big birthday feels momentous and perfectly ordinary at the same time.

As a child I can’t recall ever thinking past being in my late 30s.  Perhaps, at the time of me wondering about the future, my mother was nearing 40.  Regardless of the reason, before I turned 40, I hoped for a family and to have some sort of successful, artsy career.

Age Forty and after, I come up blank.  No childhood expectations or dreams.  I feel like I am diving off a cliff with no preconceived notions or pressures.  It is exhilarating.

There is nothing like a big birthday to make you reflect your life, and with that I am no exception.
My first decade, allowed me to learn the ways of the world, social graces, and literally how put one foot in front of the other.  My teenage years were was spent tackling a chronic, autoimmune disease and dealing with teenage angst.  In my twenties, I was still finding my footing, graduating from college, moving to DC, finding my life-long friends, and eventually meeting my husband.  Then, my thirties were are all about babies:  infertility, miscarriages, (very fortunately) child-rearing.

So, where does that leave my FORTIES?  I am not exactly sure, but I do know it is blissfully wide open, without preconceived notions.  No more teenage angst, my health is good, and I know who I am.    I look forward to focusing on myself, my art, and my family and seeing where this next decade leads!

Geronimo!

Hmm..now that leaves me with a very important question…what kind of birthday cake do I want???

 

3 Replies to “Diving Off A Cliff at Forty”

  1. Karen Merkin

    Hey Jen! Cute article! Happy birthday! I’m facing an even bigger birthday in May–my 70th!! From my perspective, I’ve done so much in the years past and accomplished more than my wildest dreams could have imagined. My art had not been an option early on, so all that has happened in my art career these past 3-4 years is just mind boggling! I had no expectations, so in that way it’s all been an amazing journey.
    Your having goals and expectations you wanted to achieve, and then to achieve them is certainly a special gift. Starting with a clean slate now after 40 will be yours to make anything happen you desire. The sky’s the limit! Enjoy the journey! And be thankful for every achievement!

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    • jkbart Post author

      Thanks so much Karen! Happy Early birthday to you, yes that is a big one too! It is so interesting to see where life leads. We are both very lucky to do what we love! Looking forward to the future and also seeing what you have in store! I am so proud of everything you have done – you really have skyrocketed!! Congrats on all your many achievements and those to come in the future!

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  2. Judi

    The world is yours, endless possibilities. You will rock your next decade, without a doubt. You are so blessed and loved by a wonderful husband, children, family and friends. Riches surround you and you enlightened and inspire all those around you. We celebrate you on this milestone birthday. I Love Forever…

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